Zoo trip today was fantastic.

Water definitely gave me a big pleasant surprise with her presence to the zoo trip. I almost thought after all that have happened, she might just do the act that sun is so good at doing - avoiding. I guess I was overly pessimistic, after all response in the group wasn't good. Sun is on a disappearing act, C is busy with her econs tests, AW is mia as usual. Fortunately there is still water, J and hen left. That's what good company can do to my life.

I enjoy every moment with her around.

Took a one week break from all this stupid thinking. Maybe S was right after all. I should not focus so much on making my life so miserable. Instead I should be enjoying every single moment of life.

I do enjoy water's company. There seems to be like endless topics we can talk about all the time. No wonder she is the soulmate that I have always wanted to have. haha

V-day today and I got no date. haha.

Water is too busy these days. As much as I think she is the right one, I find it so hard to approach her other than through group outings.

It seems to me that I am afraid of taking a step forward because I don't what will turn out if I do so. She told me that she used to avoid all the guys that used to tell her they liked her. I seriously don't want that to happen. I think I will rather force myself to forget her than lose such a good soulmate. But then she says she has no idea why she didn't avoid me. Do I take that as a signal that I still have some hope and should just ask her out next time?

anyway, I took a look at C's present for water and I saw Mr A for the first time. From the phrasing, I get this impression that water already has someone else in mind.

ah crap, what is wrong with me? I even wrote a letter to water and don't have the courage to give her.

I noticed this for sometime but I don't know whether to post this or not, after all it is more related to J & Sun. S and me discussed over msn and we agreed that there is something wrong going on with those two.

The wall is killing away the feelings for sun very quickly. Or is it I have come to a realisation that the thing that I have been chasing is wrong?

Am I breaking free from the crush feeling already? Or is it I'm having more and more feelings for water after the race incident?

It's time for reflections once more.

Today is the second race day. I was totally disappointed with sun. As much as she doesn't like me, she shouldn't have done such a thing and not help out at the last minute. It portrays the impression that she is very self-centered and cares only about herself.

Fortunately water was still around. I'm extremely grateful to her, always. She offers me the help when I am the most troubled. She's like my shelter in life. With her around, it seems as though I have the courage and ability to overcome any obstacles.

Today I came up with a new analogy.

Sun is something that you look forward to. When the sun is up, it makes the day brighter and happy, and when the sun is not there, you start to miss it alot. But the sun is alone and hot, it is so difficult to approach it , try as you might, you can never get anywhere close to it.

Water on the other hand is calm, cooling to the senses. You do not have any special feelings for the water because perhaps you are too used to it already. Water has an important role in your life, without water you cannot survive. But you do not know this until the day you have lost it.

Aries is like the sun and Pisces is like water.

Everyone seems to have noticed the wall. Now I'm beginning to wonder whether there is really a wall there or I'm just over-reacting?

Could it be the case that I unconsciously primed this idea of "something is wrong with Aries and me" into everyone's mind?

Today's bukit timah trip was still great, even though there was still some barriers between me and Aries. Must be the presence of Pisces there. She definitely brightens up my day. haha